does this happen to you? ..... or is it just me, again?

Dinner with family: I always find myself more drunk over 2 drinks then I would be with friends over 6 drinks.
Is it me faking being a lightweight? or is it that my parents bring out the 'real' drunk in me?

The world may never know.

Smoking too much causes bad vision, or is it just me?

I'd like to showcase a photo to treat your eyes to, but this is simply just a rant regarding my eyes, being high.

I need corrective eye glasses. I notice that my vision is becoming weaker, and I catch myself starring at the ipod screen trying to decode the fuzzy letters of that awesome song for way tooo long, I finally have to surrender and ask the nearest person for their eye sight, and that makes me feel defeated. I don't like feeling defeated. So, I should go see an optometrist, that is what someone with poor vision should do, right?  Not if your bad vision is caused by WEED.
Allow me to explain... I have a theory that smoking weed causes bad vision, or it could just be me, that smoking weed causes me bad vision. Which is ironic, because, marijauna is used to treat the eye illness, Gaucoma which both my Grandma and Dad have. I refuse to believe that I am the only one with this issue so, one day I would like to conduct a research survey dedicated to marijuana and it's dislike of eyeballs. That way I can prove to myself that ' It's not just me' or  that it is just me...
I have been a marijuana activist for 6 years now, and marijuana has and does make my eyes go bad. More so blurry, and twinkleee. I want to compare it to something, but my analogies don't do justice, because they usually have no reference to what it is I am trying to get ascross. I will give one anyways.. Late night of drinking, usually some hard alcohol. the drunker you get the more you forget about your pretty eye makeup you took so long to paint on, and you rub, scratch, and  smear that pretty stuff into your eyes. you don't care. you're drunk. Now, it is morning. You wake to extreme dehydration, and the need to pee. So, naturally you think to pee, and get a glass of water. And BOOM, you're blind. your eyes are blind, filled with alcohol, makeup, who knows what else, you are blind. Does this happen to other people, or is it just me? I could fill a book with "or is it just me's?" that could be a good book.
Now, hopefully my analogy helped you  understand how my eyes feel when they are high.
But, that deosn't help my conundrum... How do I go to the optometrist (He will know) to correct my poor vision if my vision is poor when I am high?
I could skip the opto.visit and go to rite-aid for some over the counter foldable "high-glasses"
hmm, I think I have just stumbled upon my next highventure.

do you Xanga?

Today while zoning out in a conversation a particular photo came to mind from highschool. It was the photo to my 'xanga' page, the hottest social blogging network on the net until myspace stepped in. I was an active member from 2003 until 2006. Reading through a few I came to the realization that I am not as weird as my 15 year old self.

I happen to like this post:

Saturday, May 15, 2004

"i just put some numbing stuff on my leg because it was in pain, and beign the idiot that i am i got it all over my mouth and my tounge. so my mouth and tounge is numb and i cant feel it. i think im goign to go peirce it."

          I never pierced it.

This one too:

Wednesday, March 03, 2004

"i just got a cell phone about 3 weeks ago it was my 5th cell phone it was a beuty, and as im going pee of course it drops in the toliet and gets flushed away. i have such great luck with cell phones. i love it."

Little did i know that luck would continue to haunt me.

not to mention, I did plenty of them god deng surveys...

73. Define True Love: when your food tastes delicious is when i have found true love.

2.your dream name : ivana humpalot

14.if you answered no, do you want to : when i get him alone ill give him a date rape drug.

37. kjfjklshdgf / uiofyhdkfh :oh deffinetly abc's

60. MOST RECENT ADVICE GIVEN TO YOU: hmm from lauren.. "spit in the goal katie!" (its good luck)

x. Place - anywhere with my friends, usually in the public restrooms

I'm so great.

And now I give to you, the infamous banana picture..


 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
Aaannd, I think this is a nice place to end.

Enjoy the photo.

I am not negative

Wow, I am not a negative person. I am quite the opposite, I see positive in everything. That last post seemed a little negative. I apologize married/engaged people, it will be nothing but bliss for you. Love on.

Decursing the curse

<  Here I am, yawning, off to the side during the bouquet toss of my cousin's wedding. 

Every single girl's favorite part of a wedding, right?

I assure you, that it is NOT my favorite part. I enjoy the champagne, the wine, the usual open bar, the dancing with drunk Grandma and distant Aunts and Uncles you never knew existed, or the ones that expect you to remember them from when you were 3 years old, those same ones that tell you strange stories of when you were little and you just sit or stand and do an awkward laugh to show that you indeed "remember" this story, while you are thanking some gods that your glass is not empty yet. Do they really expect us to remember these kind of events? Come on people, I smoke weed. My memory is fading. I struggle trying to remember my Halloween costume from the year before. Now thats a sign I need to be taking more ginko biloba. Does that stuff really work? maybe it's placebo effect? I like to think it works, that's good enough for me. It works, and I need more, more, more. Lets get back to the point. Bouquet tossing, not my favorite part of weddings, and this picture is proof.
Im a weird girl, and I do not want to catch the bouquet, again. Yes, that is right, I have caught the bouquet before and it will not happen again. I don't quite understand my dislike for the bouquet toss, Im going through a phase of believing that marriage is the worst thing to happen to two people in love, why do people get married, why does the girl have to change her last name? what is the point of spending thousands of dollars on one day, when you can stay together forever with out a liscense, and spend those thousands of dollars traveling and seeingthe world together?! Now, doesn't that sound fantastic? I think so.
I hate the curse that goes with catching the bouquet.. the one to catch is said to be the next to marry. No thank you, No thank you. Since i have caught the bouquet before, it is my duty to decurse the curse.

Single lady forever? probably.

 

New Year's Resolutions stress me, I have an idea...

"The things you promise your self you will do over the year, but quit after the first 2 weeks." says ninjajohn93 of urbandictionary.com.
With that being said, my New Year's resolution is to have NONE.  Maybe that way I will end up cheating the system and a resolution will form on it's own, and it will be epic.

Cheers to that.